Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Monday, March 30, 2009

Letting My Feelings Out



MY NAME IS JACKIE
AND NO ONE CARES
MY NAME IS JACKIE
IT IS I SWEAR
MY HAIR IS BLONDE
WELL NOT ANYMORE
MY EYES ARE BLUE
NOT AS BLUE AS BEFORE
I USED TO KNOW
HOW TO LIVE IN THE NOW
I USED TO KNOW
BUT HAVE FORGOTTEN HOW
I THINK ABOUT YESTERDAY
A LOT IT SEEMS
I THINK ABOUT TOMORROW
AND WONDER WHAT IT MEANS
WONDER WHAT IT MEANS
TO FEEL LIKE I'VE DIED
WONDER WHY I WANT
TO ALWAY HIDE
HIDE FROM THOUGHTS
AND THESE THINGS I FEEL
HIDE FROM THIS LIFE
THAT DOESN'T SEEM REAL


and this is only poetry that expresses temporary and unimportant feelings so don't make too much of it

have you ever noticed that the word poetry looks funny like it is saying poet try

yes i know i am strange what can i say

Thursday, June 26, 2008

When a Job Becomes Just That

First off the pictures I post with my blogs are totally irrelevant; kind of like me. I just like random pictures and believe visual stimulation helps keep my mind running. Well this is just a quick note about how my job has lost it's allure for me. Of course when I first started working at this job it was just a means to make some money. I only worked part-time at first because I had young children and only needed some extra for the family. Well that's not really true; there were some extenuating circumstances, but that's a whole other blog. Back to the dulling of my interest in my job. Over the years I increased my hours at my job for one reason or another. As all jobs go there were good times and bad; but because I spent so much time there and because it became second nature to do the things I had to do my time at work was quite pleasant. Indeed, sometimes work was an actual refuge from the stress of personal life. I have worked in the same place coming on nineteen years and you would think that I would be past being bored with it. Still work, like life has a great degree of repetition and I seem to be at a stage of life where repetition makes me want to tear my hair out. I'm not sure, but it seems to be an adult attention deficit disorder. I still have moments when my job makes me smile and if I have to work, I guess working somewhere you are used to is a great thing. But yet I do believe the time is coming for change and if I didn't have so many financial responsibilities that time would be sooner than later.

On a last note I do wish there was a punctuation check as well as a spell check. Or maybe I should have paid more attention all the years ago in school.