Still in an emotional limbo

Today is New Year's Eve. Will be picking up my grandson Tyler later to bring him back here to spend the night. This will allow his mother to have some grown up time. I would like to say I am excited about this but really I just want to sleep.  I don't think I really know how to amuse this grandson and I feel so blah that I am not sure I can. I don't want him to feel neglected but he will probably be playing video games with Rich anyhow. Thinking it probably would have been better to watch him at his house. Are these holidays over yet? Will watch the parade tomorrow and then take Tyler home. After that it is just a matter of getting through the rest of the day and back to work the next day. Pretty sad that work is now the only place I care to be but on the other hand I am thankful that I enjoy that again. Lord please just give me some enthusiasm for something and help me get through the other hours of my life without causing anyone pain.