The Strange Feeling You Get Seeing Your Own Words In Print

Wow, I have such and ego problem. Normally low self-esteem dogs me every day. Or does it? Sometimes I believe I falsely give the impression of low self-esteem so people do not realize how full of myself I am. I mean really; why am I on here blogging like anyone wants to read what I have to say. Or maybe I am just doing this to validate my existence; my thought process, myself really. I used to write in a journal and then I stopped. My journals became histories of my idiosyncrasies that seemed to haunt me. When I can think and type my thoughts come faster and seem to release emotions that I keep pent up on a normal basis. But back to that strange feeling. I sit here and write, rambling most of the time. Then when I read things that I have written; I think wow there I am right there for everyone to see. And because it is in print for some reason I feel more real than I normally do. You see; sometimes I don't feel real. Sometimes I don't feel like I really exist. Odd huh?