I realized today that I used to come to my blog regularly to vent and then I just stopped.  I am pretty sure this is because no one ever saw my blog and venting is not really effective unless someone else is aware of the fact.  The problem with the need to vent publicly, at least for me, is that I don't really want to bother people or let them know that I have so many issues.

But maybe I really need to do this just for me.  If I can vent, even if it is privately, then maybe I will lose some stress inside my mind.

Jenni B

Jenni B was funny little girl

 

 

With bright red hair that never would curl

 

 

What do you think she did all day

 

 

I bet you think she would run and play

 

 

When outside the others would be

 

 

Inside reading was Jenni B

 

 

Her world was inside a book

 

The world around her she'd forsook

 

When Jenni B to a woman grew

 

She didn't know what she would do

 

The world outside was closing in

 

Only the books she read would quiet the din

 

Jenni needed to be set free

 

She had her own her own story to live you see

 

She decided to write stories to share

 

To her readers she says beware

 

Reading about  romance and adventure is great

 

But get out and live your life before it is too late

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



A million things I should be doing but painted instead

I have a million things to do today but decided my pantry doors must be painted. I actually have wanted to paint them for awhile but today my brain decided it was time. Originally I was thinking of a dry brush technique like I did in the bathroom but the green paint I used didn't work well for that. Thus the doors got a solid coat of paint instead which actually looks quite nice.  I want to do the cabinets but the green is too dark and I am not sure what other color to use.

TALK TALK TALK

Relationships are work and they require talking. But most of the time I just don't have the energy and get really emotional. What if you just don't know how to have a relationship anymore?

The same old dance, different day

Another day and it's the same old song and dance. Go through the motions of life without addressing the issues that are lurking ever present beneath the surface. When two people go through life just being together they actually become more separate. What an odd situation you find yourself in. The relationship has most likely run it's course but it is such a sad thing you both just stay in denial.

Sometimes it is just so hard to yank myself out of be

Lately I have a hard time getting up. I manage it but the lure of sleep and living in sporadic dreaming is strong.  I really need to shake this but I don't foresee it happening. It is like I am just moving through life because that is what you do. The result is impulse shopping and too much nothing.

Thoughts Just Won't Stop

Thoughts just fly around in my brain lately without my consent. I try to shut the door on them and they sneak through the cracks. I wish I was a strong motivated sort of person who could take life by the horns and make it do what I want. Well, the truth really is that I wish there was someone out there who could do it for me. So many things in my life make me unhappy and yet here I sit writing about it. A strong person would get up and make changes. I can't seem to figure this relationship thing out so I just drift along on the current which makes neither of us happy. Still to be honest if I wasn't here I wouldn't have anywhere to go. My children make me nervous because I worry about them all of the time even though I don't really know how to help them. Oh I pay my son's bills but that is just keeping the worry at bay, it isn't really helping him. I am so tired of being me that my very skin hurts sometimes. As I write this my mind is screaming, whine, whine ,whine! Yeah writing about your issues doesn't really help. All it does is relieve the pressure on your brain a bit so you don't explode all over the place.