Thoughts just fly around in my brain lately without my consent. I try to shut the door on them and they sneak through the cracks. I wish I was a strong motivated sort of person who could take life by the horns and make it do what I want. Well, the truth really is that I wish there was someone out there who could do it for me. So many things in my life make me unhappy and yet here I sit writing about it. A strong person would get up and make changes. I can't seem to figure this relationship thing out so I just drift along on the current which makes neither of us happy. Still to be honest if I wasn't here I wouldn't have anywhere to go. My children make me nervous because I worry about them all of the time even though I don't really know how to help them. Oh I pay my son's bills but that is just keeping the worry at bay, it isn't really helping him. I am so tired of being me that my very skin hurts sometimes. As I write this my mind is screaming, whine, whine ,whine! Yeah writing about your issues doesn't really help. All it does is relieve the pressure on your brain a bit so you don't explode all over the place.
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