Even Mothers like to be Included

I am beginning to realize what it was like for my mother when we all congregated at her house on Saturday nights.  Sure it was wonderful to see everyone and enjoy them interacting together.  But did we sometimes forget she was sitting right there just listening to us, probably mostly not being able to get a word in edgewise?  I think it was probably more fun for her when people visited separately so she was the focus not just the excuse to see each other.  I love having my kids with me but yesterday I felt like I was invisible.  This is mostly my own fault because I spend too much time making sure everyone else is getting what they need and then getting cranky when that is exactly what they expect from me.  I was so snappy this weekend that I was annoying my own self.  Sometimes I just want to look at people and scream, What about me? Isn't what I do interesting, aren't I fun?  I know I am overreacting but that is where my brain has been going lately.  Most the time I want to just disappear so no one has to deal with my f-ing craziness.  But I think what I really want is for someone to say they would miss me. :(