STILL MORE OUT OF NOWHERE THOUGHTS

I REVEL IN MY MADNESS
FOR IT IS MINE AND MINE ALONE
YOU CANNOT SHARE IT
NOR CAN YOU TAKE IT AWAY
YOUR WORDS OF COMFORT AND LOGIC
MIGHT MAKE ME HIDE IT
UNDER A SEMBLANCE OF NORMALCY
YET STILL IT REMAINS MAKING ITSELF KNOWN
WHENEVER YOU SEE AN ACTION
THAT MARKS ME AS AND INDIVIDUAL
DIFFERENT FROM THE REST
FOR THIS THE REASON
MY MADNESS REMAINS
TO KEEP ME FROM BEING YOU

just another randomness that came to me

I CAME FROM ABOVE
AND I WANT TO GO BACK
HOW WAS I TO KNOW
WHAT THIS LIFE WOULD LACK
WHERE IS THE JOY, THE EXCITEMENT,
THE LOVE
IT WAS FOR THESE THINGS
I CAME DOWN FROM ABOVE
I WILL GO BACK AND
NEVER RETURN
UNLESS THERE IS A WAY
FOR ME TO RELEARN
TO LIVE MY LIFE
AS IT SHOULD BE
TO ACCEPT THAT THE PROBLEM
WAS ACTUALLY ME

THE EXISTENCE OF VIOLENCE AND AGGRESSION

I AM WRITING THIS POST TO CLARIFY A FEW THINGS. INDEED VIOLENCE HAS EXISTED AS LONG AS MAN HAS. ALL TYPES OF ANIMALS HAVE SOME FORM OF AGGRESSION OR THEY WOULD NOT SURVIVE. HOWEVER MAN SEEMS TO BE THE WORST ANIMAL FOR MISDIRECTING THIS AGGRESSION. YES OUR SURVIVAL REQUIRES DIFFERENT FORMS OF AGGRESSION THESE DAYS SO MAYBE WE NEED OUTLETS FOR IT. I BELIEVE THAT IS TRUE ESPECIALLY FOR MALES AND QUITE OFTEN FOR FEMALES TOO. THUS WE HAVE COMPETITIVE SPORTS AND YES VIDEO GAMES. HOWEVER WHAT I AM SAYING IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN IT STOPS BEING GROSS AND AWFUL AND SCARY WHEN SOMEONE IS CARVED TO PIECES AND IT STARTS BEING COOL. WHAT KIND OF BEING THINKS THAT IS COOL. IT IS JUST A THOUGHT.

A COLD DAY OF THOUGHTS

TODAY I AM TYPING IN CAPITALS. IT DOESN'T MEAN I AM YELLING AS THE CYBER-SPACE CONTINGENT HAS INFORMED ME. IT MEANS THAT I DON'T FEEL LIKE HITTING SHIFT WHEN CAPITALS ARE ACTUALLY NEEDED AND AVOIDS THAT GUILTY FEELING I GET WHEN I DON'T CAPITALIZE WHEN IT IS NECESSARY. TALK ABOUT WEIRD AND ABNORMAL PHOBIAS. OH WELL, IT JUST GOES TO SHOW THAT WHEN YOU ARE TAUGHT SOMETHING IT GRABS HOLD OF YOUR BRAIN WITH A VENGEANCE. NOW THERE IS A THOUGHT; WHEN YOU ARE YOUNG AND YOU ARE BEING EDUCATED THE LESSONS ARE REPEATED OVER AND OVER UNTIL THEY SEEM TO BE HARDWIRED INTO YOUR BRAIN. DOES ANYONE ELSE THINK THAT MAYBE YOUNG CHILDREN BEING EXPOSED TO VIOLENCE AND SEXUAL VISIONS ON TELEVISION AND VIDEO GAMES ON A CONSTANT BASIS MIGHT BE HAVING SOMETHING TOTALLY EVIL HARDWIRED INTO THEIR BRAINS? I NEVER USED TO FEEL THIS WAY BUT LATELY I HAVE WITNESSED BEHAVIOR AND LISTENED TO TALK FROM YOUNGER PEOPLE THAT SUGGESTS THE TRUTH OF THIS MATTER. AND WHY ARE SO MANY VIDEO GAMES BASED ON VIOLENCE? WHAT IS THE DRAW? WHY HAVE WE STOPPED STRIVING FOR THE HIGHER GROUND, FOR THE BETTER PARTS OF OURSELVES,FOR THE SOFTER PARTS OF OURSELVES? WHAT FEAR HAS IMPOSED ITSELF UPON US TO MAKE US GIVE UP ON THE IDEA OF A SHANGRAI-LA EXISTENCE WHERE PEACE AND HARMONY EXIST. WHERE MANKIND THRIVES AND GROWS WHILE CARING FOR EACH OTHER LIKE WE WERE ALL ONE. WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO MAN? WHEN DID WE REVERT TO ANIMAL. NO MATTER HOW TECHNOLOGICALLY ADVANCED WE HAVE BECOME, SPIRITUALLY WE ARE STARTING TO REVERT TO THE DARK AGES. I AM NOT TALKING GOD HERE PEOPLE BECAUSE THAT IS JUST A LABEL. I AM TALKING INNER SPIRITUALITY WHERE THE TRUTH EXISTS. WHERE WE KNOW THAT VIOLENCE BEGETS VIOLENCE AND WE KNOW THAT HATE BEGETS HATE AND WE TRULY KNOW THAT WE ARE ONE SOUL BOUND TOGETHER. THE HARM WE DO TO EACH OTHER IS SELF-DESTRUCTIVE AS WE ARE TRULY ONE. MAN IS BEING SEIZED BY AN EVIL; AN EVIL THAT IS PERVASIVE AND STRONG. I FEEL THAT EVIL EVERYDAY, WITHIN MYSELF AS WELL AS AROUND ME. I AM AFRAID.