SO WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN THE MONSTER CALLED BOREDOM HITS YOU. IT IS SUCH A REAL THING THAT EXISTS EVEN WHEN YOU ARE SURROUNDED BY THINGS TO DO. AND WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOUR BRAIN BLAMES THE FEELINGS THAT THIS MONSTER BRINGS ON THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU. IT ISN'T THEIR FAULT AFTER ALL NO ONE IS RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR HAPPINESS EXCEPT YOURSELF. AT LEAST THAT IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN TOLD AND WHAT I HAVE READ. STILL IF WE ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR OUR OWN HAPPINESS AND ALSO HAVE A STRANGE FEELING THAT WE ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR THE HAPPINESS OF OTHERS EVEN THOUGH THAT FEELING SHOULDN'T EXIST SINCE THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR THEIR OWN HAPPINESS ISN'T THERE A HORRIBLE SENSE OF CONFLICT. AND ISN'T THAT SENSE OF CONFLICT A WALL THAT IS VERY HARD TO GET PAST TO FIGHT THE BOREDOM MONSTER AND ALLOW YOURSELF TO MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY. WOW THIS IS REALLY RAMBLING AND NOT MAKING ANY SENSE. IT IS JUST A RESIDUE OF AN ATTACK BY THE BOREDOM MONSTER.

JUST A NOTE TO SHOW I'M STILL HERE

SO I GUESS A LOT OF TIME HAS GONE BY SINCE I LAST ADDED ANYTHING TO THIS BLOG SITE. I WAS INFORMED OF THIS BY A GOOD FRIEND WHO WENT OUT OF HER WAY TO CHECK MY BLOG OUT. ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT LIFE HAS GOTTEN IN THE WAY OF MY THOUGHTS. OR MAYBE MY THOUGHTS ON LIFE ARE NOT NECESSARILY SOMETHING THAT I WANT TO PUT IN PRINT AT THIS MOMENT. HAVE YOU EVER FELT THAT WRITING SOMETHING DOWN MAKES IT MORE REAL OR GIVES IT MORE POWER. I BELIEVE WE ALL FEEL THIS WAY. IT IS WHY WE MAKE LISTS AND WHY WE CREATE BUMPER STICKERS OR GRAPHIC TEES. BECAUSE WORDS HAVE SUCH POWER AND WHEN IN PRINT THEY SEEM TO BE EVEN MORE POWERFUL. AS I WAS STATING MY THOUGHTS ON LIFE RIGHT AT THIS TIME ARE NOT VERY PLEASANT AND I REALLY DON'T WANT TO GIVE THEM MORE POWER BY SEEING THEM IN PRINT. I'M SURE I WILL BE BACK SOON POURING OUT MY HEART OR JUST EXPRESSING SOME STRANGE THOUGHT THAT LEAPT INTO MY MIND OUT OF THE GREAT VOID OF THE WORLD. UNTIL THEN MAYBE SOMEONE COULD SHARE THEIR WORDS WITH ME. HOPE THE FALL IS GREAT FOR ONE AND ALL.

MY OWN COMPUTER ADDICTION

LORD BUT I'VE GONE AND DONE IT AGAIN. SPENT THE BETTER PART OF THE DAY ON THIS DANGED COMPUTER. HERE I HAVE A DAY OFF AND YES THERE ARE PLENTY OF THINGS I NEED TO GET DONE AND THINGS I'D LIKE TO DO. YET THE FIRST THING I DO WHEN I WAKE UP IS GET ON THIS EVIL THING. I KNOW IT'S NOT EVIL BUT ONCE I LAY MY HANDS ON THE KEYBOARD I SEEM TO BE DONE FOR. THERE IS ALWAYS SOME NEW SITE TO BECOME PART OF. SOME NEW WINDOW (AND NOW I KNOW WHY THEY CALL IT WINDOWS) TO PEER THROUGH. IT'S LIKE YOUR LIFE IS DISSATISFYING SO YOU MUST LOOK AND LOOK FOR SOMETHING BETTER. ITS THE WHOLE ALICE THROUGH THE LOOKING GLASS THING. YOU FEEL DIFFERENT HERE ANOTHER VERSION OF YOURSELF. AS YOU BROWSE AND CLICK AND TYPE YOUR MIND IS TELLING YOU THAT TIME IS AWASTING BUT YOU DON'T LISTEN YOU SWAT IT AWAY LIKE A BUG. JUST ONE MORE PAGE, JUST ONE MORE PICTURE, LET'S SEE WHAT SO AND SO IS DOING. GEEZ IS THAT REALLY TRUE ,NOW LET'S CHECK OUT THIS LINK, OMG WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE. WELL THIS LITTLE CHICKY HAS TO STOP FOR AWHILE OR SHE WILL EXPLODE.

NETWORKING SITES THAT SEEM LIKE INFORMATION FISHERS

I JOINED A NETWORKING SITE CALLED EONS AND NOW I'M NOT SO SURE ABOUT IT. IT IS SUPPOSED TO BE A SITE FOR PEOPLE IN MY AGE GROUP AND I WILL BE HONEST AND SAY I HAVEN'T EXPLORED IT THAT MUCH. STILL THE SMALL AMOUNTS OF STUFF THAT I HAVE EXPLORED THERE SEEM LIKE DEVICES TO FISH FOR INFORMATION. I JUST DID A QUESTION AND ANSWER PART OF THE PROFILE AND THE QUESTIONS DEFINITELY SMACKED OF INFORMATION SEEKING. OH WELL I GUESS THEY HAVE SPONSORS FOR THEIR SITE AND THIS IS HOW IT'S PAID FOR. NOT SURE THE SITE IS RIGHT FOR ME BECAUSE THE PEOPLE ON IT ARE NOT REALLY IN MY BRACKET OF INTERESTS. WE SHALL SEE.

WISHES

Don't we all wish we had a dragon for a friend? Strong and faithful and wise. Someone to tell our woes to whose wisdom would help us find the way in the world. A friend who is not of the mundane world. A friend beyond comprehension to the average world we live in. Don't we all wish we had a dragon for a friend.

FEELING SMALL IN THIS MASSIVE WORLD OF INFORMATION ON THE WORLDWIDE WEB

I HAVE BEEN SITTING HERE CHECKING OUT VARIOUS BLOGS ON THIS SITE. THIS HAS CONTRIBUTED GREATLY TO MY SENSE OF SMALLNESS THAT I GET WHEN I SEARCH THE WEB. I CAN FEEL SMALL IN A GATHERING OF A FEW PEOPLE; IMAGINE HOW I FEEL WHEN I REALIZE THE MAGNITUDE OF PEOPLE ON THE WEB. IT IS AMAZING! IN MY LIFE THINGS HAVE CHANGED SO GREATLY THAT I FEEL OVERWHELMED SOMETIMES. WHEN I WAS YOUNG AND THE WORLD I LIVED IN WAS A SMALL COMPACT PLACE THINGS SEEMED SO SIMPLE. OF COURSE I REALIZED THAT THERE WERE OTHER THINGS GOING ON OUTSIDE MY TINY UNIVERSE BUT I DID NOT HAVE ACCESS TO THEM SO THEY DID NOT AFFECT ME AS MUCH. AS I GOT OLDER AND LIFE TOOK ME AWAY FROM MY SMALL WORLD OF EXISTENCE; I BEGAN TO REALIZE THAT THERE WAS A LOT TO SEE, FEEL, AND THINK ABOUT. MY CHOICES BECAME ALMOST UNMANAGEABLE. SO MUCH STUFF, SO MUCH INFORMATION NOW; FOCUS HAS BECOME DIFFICULT. HOW DOES A PERSON FEEL WORTH IN THIS WORLD IF FOR EVERY TALENT THEY THINK THEY HAVE THERE IS SO MUCH MORE OUT THERE MAKING IT LOOK LIKE NOTHING. I REALIZE THAT ALL EFFORTS IN LIFE COUNT BUT THE HARDEST THING TO DO IS TO CONVINCE ONES BRAIN OF THAT FACT. THE PRAISE AND TRIBUTE I WILL GIVE TO THE SMALLEST EFFORT BY ANY PERSON IS SOMETHING I FAIL TO GIVE MYSELF. MAYBE ALL PEOPLE FEEL THIS WAY AND IF THIS IS SO I HOPE MY SMALL WORDS OF PRAISE AND ENCOURAGEMENT I GIVE ANY ONE OF MY FELLOW MEN GIVES A GLIMMER OF MEANING TO THEIR ACCOMPLISHMENTS. I WILL CONTINUE TO TRY TO NOTICE THINGS PEOPLE DO AND SHOW THEM I NOTICE. MAYBE THIS IS THE PURPOSE OF ALL PEOPLE TO ACKNOWLEDGE EACH OTHERS EXISTENCE AND SPECIALNESS BECAUSE WE CANNOT ACKNOWLEDGE IT FOR OURSELVES.

SUMMER DAYS BEING WASTED

YES ONCE AGAIN THIS IS JUST A RANDOM PICTURE. SOMEHOW IT SEEMS MORE FUN TO HAVE A PICTURE WITH THE POSTS. THIS POST IS ABOUT THE FACT THAT THE SUN IS SHINING AND IT IS A RELATIVELY NICE SUMMER DAY AND HERE I AM INSIDE. IN FACT THE WHOLE DARN FAMILY IS INSIDE, EVEN THE DOG. HAD MY SON COME UP FOR A VISIT AND IT SEEMS WE DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH OURSELVES. KINDA MAKES ME WISH I HAD JUST LET HIM STAY HOME AND I COULD HAVE MOWED THE LAWN. STILL AT LEAST WE ARE IN THE VICINITY OF EACH OTHER. I WOULD FEEL WEIRD GOING OUT TO MOW THE LAWN WHEN HE IS HERE. MAYBE I SHOULD ANYWAY BUT IT IS GETTING KINDA LATE. YOU KNOW I KEEP TYPING KINDA AND I DON'T THINK IT IS EVEN A WORD. I WENT OUTSIDE FOR AWHILE TODAY AND TOOK PICTURES AND STUFF. THEN I ALSO SAT ON THE DECK AND READ BUT STILL WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO THE OLD ME? I USED TO LIVE OUTSIDE IN THE SUMMER. WALKING AND STUFF WAS WHAT I DID. WELL I GUESS ALL THINGS CHANGE. JUST WANTED TO WRITE A LITTLE ABOUT IT AND NOW I AM GETTING OFF. HOPEFULLY NOT TOO MANY PEOPLE WILL READ THIS RIGHT AWAY BECAUSE HOPEFULLY THEY ARE OUTSIDE ENJOYING SUMMER. SUMMER DAYS SHOULD NOT BE WASTED.