I Am Tired Of Being Me

Here I am again complaining about being me. This time I am complaining because I realize how hard it must be to be around me when I am like this, so I am requesting to no longer be me.  I feel so unhappy and cranky all of the time and I know that the vibe is just radiating off of me and coloring other people's environments.  I just do not know what to do.  Just be happy you say? Well that is easy to say but not easy to do.  I can decide I am no longer going to look at life like it is a horrible survival experience but the feelings are inside of me are warring with the decision, showing me that I am just lying to myself.  I couldn't even begin to say what would make me happy because just about everything is just too much to bear.  Go to work, come home blah blah blah. I really just want to no longer be me, I just no longer want to be.