Am I having fun?

I am not sure I am having fun anymore

I am not sure I would recognize fun if I was in the center of it

I am not sure if I can remember what fun feels like

I am not sure fun can be sustained while I am near

I am not sure where fun went

I am not sure if fun will return

I am not sure I am having fun anymore

:( :( :( :(

I hate being such a downer

I hate being the sad face

I hate not remembering how to be happy

I hate thinking about this stuff

I hate wondering if things could and should be different

I hate feeling out of control

I hate being such a downer

:/ :/ :/ :/ :/

I need to take control of my life

I need to look at life differently

I need to live life better

I need to accept life as it is

I need to change my life if necessary

I need to let life be

I need to take control of my life

?????????

Pay no mind to the man behind the curtain

Pay no mind to the falseness that you see

Pay no mind to the man behind the curtain

Pay no mind for it is only a fantasy you see

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