Thursday, February 17, 2011
The Humane Thing?????
Today I am doing the humane thing??? with my dog. So why do I feel like a murderer? She has been sick for awhile but she doesn't seem to be in pain. The problem is that she messes all over the place and since we don't have a nice warm kennel for her to be in something has to be done. And even if we did what is the quality of life in an existence where no one really wants to be around you because of the smell and the unsightliness of your being? But still is the sound of a familiar voice or the presence of a familiar person maybe enough? Who knows? All I know is that I have to do this and I don't want to and I am going to feel it for a very long time. It is very hard to find the logic of loving something only to have to lose it or get rid of it. My heart is heavy and in anguish.
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I'm sorry Jackie. It is very hard but trust me - you're doing the right thing. Our first dog died slowly and painfully because we just couldn't bring ourselves to do it and I think we'll always regret that. I had to put my first cat, Muffin, down two days after my wedding. He was active and eating, but he peed around the house and occasionally coughed up blood. It was getting bad and, as it turned out, he had terminal cancer. It's very hard and very sad... But you *did* the humane thing.
On February 17, 2011 Shadow went to "sleep" while laying in my lap.
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