Narcissism

I find that within all this depression and self-pity I am a bit of a narcissist. I am constantly perusing my writings here in my blog. I am not sure if it is to check that I am not writing stupid stuff or if I need to reassure myself that I am not half-bad at this. No one else seems to read my writings which I can understand so I read them myself. Maybe I am still looking for that glimmer of me that I can identify with. I do the same thing with my sketches, checking them out and revisiting them to confirm that yes I was the one that did them. It always boils down to constantly reconfirming my own identity as I seem to have lost the ability to hold on to my sense of self.