Monday, April 26, 2010

just writing about me, why I do not know

She thinks today will seem very long. She is in some discomfort; deep breaths are painful.. It could be a result of her allergies or a cold coming on. Who knows? Of course she just deals with it as she will not seek professional counsel. She realizes that she is stubborn on this matter and a bit irrational. She constantly urges others to seek the help of medical professionals while shunning them herself unless a situation forces it upon her. It is a combination of fear, lack of confidence and denial of the need. She will probably exit this world sooner than absolutely necessary because of this. Yet she feels that to be held in a web of physicians and medications isn't her way so she will go on as she always has. She will deal with discomfort and pain: she will absolutely not seek professional help unless trauma of some sort forces her hand. So when you hear her complain just let it pass over you. She has no one to blame but herself.

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