Sunday, May 10, 2015

Mother's Day and Other Holidays

I am no longer a big fan of holidays.  I used to love the excuse to do special things and go visiting but now holidays are just another thing I have to figure out.  What do we do, how do we do it, where do we go, who goes, who needs transportation, how long does it last, how much is it going to cost, are there going to be bad feelings and disappointments. I do not perceive life in a happy form of mind anymore. Anytime I try something comes along and knocks the happy right out of my mind. I want to be a duck and let stuff just run off my back but I am not a duck.  I am a sponge and when I absorb happy and bad, the happy runs out like the water and the bad clings like the dirt.  I am a nasty used sponge.